September 2011
5 posts
Wtf
I hate myself
But what to do? I deserve all these nonsense. Who asked me to love you? Despite all the disagrees from friends, I carried on loving you, and this is what I got?! Fine. I shall live my life too. Tonight shall be the last night I’m thinking about you and crying over this!
Exs are most tricky part. I hate what I am feeling right now. Abhor all these feelings that I am having
How can loving you become so difficult? Seriously, I have no idea what’s going on with us. Are we considered a fling? At least to me it wasn’t just a fling. I am not such a loose woman.
May 2011
1 post
Thoughts about life (?)
Recently, I have made a few Japanese students from Osaka, studying at Nara National College of Technology. After our acquintance, I came to realise that be it studies, work or anything that you do, it makes a difference when you have done it with your heart and when you just do it for the sake of doing it. I am ashamed to admit that throughout my 18years of existence, I have been doing things for...
April 2011
1 post
Sometimes I wonder what would it be like, if my mum wasn’t you, or I wasn’t your daughter, I’ll wonder whether will things be better, or worse? At times like this, imagination helps.
March 2011
1 post
忘れないで！
January 2011
3 posts
Maze
I realised that you have disappear from my life.
思念你的痛。
我真的好想你。没有你的生活是沉闷，无趣。在日本的你有没有想我呢？3月，我应该去日本吗？去了我会更伤心，更想你，更加望不了你。康德。。 你好残忍。但，我并不恨你。。
December 2010
12 posts
I can’t believe that without you in my life makes me felt so lone. Nothing is right. Where’d have gone? I miss you so. Majide. 2011, another sad year ahead? Guess I’ll be starting my new year with loneliness. Kanashi desu.
Life sucks
Normal life
Seems like life’s back normal.
cramps- go away
My weekends are occupied with me and my bed, and sickening cramps. I’ve ate medicine and it seems that cramps love me this much that it doesn’t want to go away >< o.m.gosh this is tiring me out. My period always comes a week before my papers and it tires me out. How to study effectively, tell me tell me??!!
GO AWAY
It’s a lazy Saturday. I’ve slept my day away. It seems like sleeping my day away stops me from the harsh world. haha dreams exist, santa exist too, all I want for xmas this year, is to have a better year ahead too. Everyone, have a great xmas, and year ahead!
doushite?
Trust me, I do not wish myself to be in such a state. Sometimes, when the night gets lonely, you’ll start to think about those times whereby you’re blessed with happiness and then the syndrome of missing someone hits you and there you go, hell starts to knock you over. I have been experiencing this ever since I’ve met you. It’s not your fault, nonody’s at fault-...
happy birthday yasu and keisuke!
Happy birthday to the both of you! Although I couldn’t celebrate it with you guys, but hopefully you’ve received the sweets ^^ love you guys!
Think-ed
Perhaps, I am not those that suits a long-distant relationship. The feeling of not being to see you, touch you, hear from you is really unbearable. I guess, distance plays a big part in a relationship. It’s only 2 weeks of not being able to talk to you could drive me insane, I think, a month would meant death. Let’s let go and just carry on as friends instead. Nothing more than a...
waiting got me insane
I’m getting tired. I’m getting worn out from waiting for you. I’m really tired. Each day is passing by really slowly and I’m getting real tired. Really.
November 2010
35 posts
想念
春蚕到死丝方尽，蜡炬成灰泪始干。
monday blues?
This morning I woke up with this empty feeling surrounding me, again. I felt as though you have vanished from this universe. Why would I miss you this much? Why would I love you this much? I felt as though I am so weak, too weak for everything. Do I need to go through these ordeal? I don’t know.
梦
有人说：有梦想就要追。真的。我要追我的梦想。^^
我疯了吗？
虽然我真的好想你，但是，我希望你能够考得好成绩，所以我把我的思念给藏起来。我不想让你看到我脆弱的一面。但是，怎么办？？ 我想你想到要发疯了!希望在日本的你，在任真的念书，也在想我。^^
getting used, slowly?
Habits are scary. Getting used to something is scary too. I do not wish to get used to this emptiness. I do not wish to get used to not talking to you. I do not wish to get used to a life without you. I do not wish to get used to not missing you. I do not wish to get used to plenty of things out there.
It’s a wonder that with only one sentence of- “How have you been doing?”...
どうして？
まいにち まいばん つのてく おもい。 ほんとに
きみ を すき に なて しまてん だろう？
I miss you so much. With each day wishing that March could faster come and I could be by your side. This is how much I am wishing for. This is how much I love you.
なんでよ？
I am missing you so much. I am glad that this site is unknown to many. So I could keep posting how much I am missing you without you knowing. I miss you so much. I don’t know whether you’re missing me, but I am missing you Sooooooooooooo Muchhhhhhhh.
taught
You have taught me to be independent.
You have taught me how to love a person, even though I don’t get to see you in person.
You have taught me to guard my heart.
康徳 我好爱你。
Gonna be all right
Learn to be happy. ^^ and everything will be all right.
how to be happy?
I really wanted to be happy. I am an individual that thinks a lot, and mostly about negetive things. I tend to worry too much about the outcome. I tend to hold grudges. I do not forgive and forget as easily. I’m only human.
私わ幸せね！
Kellynn ^^ しにゅ
Esther ^^ しにゅ
A great day! ^^ まじ まじ まじ まじ 幸せ！ しにゅ どこ いる の？？
m.i.s.s u
Why do I have to worry for you? I am getting tired of worrying for you. But, it’s addictive for me to worry you. Contradicting. 康徳 How have you been doing?
where you you
The greatest thing you have taught me is to stay strong even when you are not by my side.
was it all just a dream?
“I was thinkin’ bout you, thinkin’ bout me, thinkin’ bout us
what we gonna be, it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down the road,
will you come back? No one knows
I realise, it was only just a dream.”
This song sums up the whole surreal feeling that I had. How to effectively guard my heart and not let it be hurt? I have no idea how, but so far, I have...
Again
I felt so empty and lost without your presence. I miss you dearly :(
sunrise
When can I catch the next sunrise with you by my side?
peace
想，要，争取。我每一刻都在其待明年的三月快点来。在日本的你，有没有好好过？有没有想我？有没有好好吃饭？真的，我好想你。
恋(Koi)
I did not know that missing a person could be this horrible. The feeling is really horrible. おれ かなしです。 べんきょ、ガンバテ！
?
I’ll wait for you. In the meanwhille, I’ll do my work well. ^^
when
Love is a greatest thing a guy can ever give a girl.
I'm getting tired.
最后一刻-合照
康徳、你的表情总是这样。 好烦，但是我喜欢 ^^
好想你-康徳。 不知道昨天的毕赛是否赢了呢？ 好想现在打电话给你，但是，你人在日本！我真的好想你！
I miss 康徳
Today was a great day. すごい!
Whatever the future that lies in front of us, I will not waivered. That is my promise to you. ^^
thoughts
Will I be able to become the woman of your choice?
Will I be able to withstand the harsh and torturous lonely nights?
Will I be able to endure the lonely months?
Will I be able to have faith in our re-friendship?
Will I be able to not care about language barriers?
Will I be able to have the courage to continue?
Will I be able to have everlasting trust in us?
Will our future be happy and...
If only I could turn back the clock
I missed those days whereby I need not worry about studies, work and just simply enjoy myself to the fullest with my great shinyus. Aw, I missed those times whereby I’ll always be with Natalie and co. Missed those dearly >< It’s okay, after another gruelling 4 months, I’ll be in Kumamoto, Japan having 7 days of never-ending fun with them. Crossed-fingers. This is my great...
You think
Met Up with Jingwen and there was no absolute awkward moment within us at all. Totally love her company. Naive girls out there, predators can really hurt you like crazy so beware.
康徳, I know you wouldn’t have the chance to see this, but I really missed you so much. I missed your voice, I missed your なんでこれ, I missed your epic “haha??” I really missed you so much, so much so...